4.32 Spencer's heartbreak

Heather turned around to see Spencer with a look of horror written across his face, “You knew for the past ten bloody years and you never said a damn thing.”

Heather hated when Spencer was angry at her and she started to back away, “You have to understand…” Spencer cut her off, “The love of my life, the mother of my son and you never said.”

“I’m sorry but you wouldn’t tell me anything and when I tried talking to you about Tracy you kept saying you hated her.”

“The moment I saw her I fell for her but I didn’t realise what an idiot I was until she left me. If I stopped my criminal activity and got a job like she begged me too, we would properly be married with more kids. Did you know I tried to locate her for about three years after she left? If I’d known you had her address I’d have come to you.” 

He collapsed in the chair and Heather said, “You are with Paris and you are getting married.”

Spencer looked at his sister and said, “How can I marry her now. I need to see Tracy and figure out if I still have feeling for her. Does Mathew know any of this?”

“Not yet?”

“Heather, why were you speaking to Tracy?”

“Matt got drunk and slept with woman who now claims she is expecting his baby. Hazel is on the verge of leaving him. Apparently this all happened before he got with Hazel. I asked Tracy to help find the truth.”

“I want her address, Heather.” She looked at the sadness on his face and replied, “I don’t think it’s a good idea.”

“Give me that damn address now,” raising his voice.

Reluctantly Heather agreed, “All I have is her work address and telephone number.”

Spencer started to tremble and Heather got down beside him, “Spenc, what really went on?” 

He didn’t look at her and now with a shaky voice started to tell his side, “I walked out the prison gates and the moment Tracy wrapped her arms around me planting kisses on me I knew my criminal activity had to stop. I managed to get a job and we started to talk about getting married and having another baby and for a month I stuck to my promise then an offer came that I should have passed up but didn’t. Anyway I got sent down for ten months, I kept myself to myself and was out in five months but at the prison gates there were no hugs and kisses. Tracy was hurt and upset at always being left to look after Mathew while I was inside. She told me that she needed time away and I was to grow up as Mathew needed a father. She said Mathew was staying with me. A few days later she phoned asking how Mathew was but I was angry she left me and refused to let Tracy see him unless she came home. She put money in our joint bank account for him but I never heard from her again. If I’d said sorry and not used Mathew as a bargaining chip, she would have come back.”

Heather was in shock, “Did you ever bad mouth Tracy to Matt?”

“Never. He loves his Mum. I came to you for help because I couldn’t cope on my own. I realised how Tracy must have felt and that is why I want to find her and apologise.”

“Do you still love Tracy?”

“Yes but I need to see her to be 110% sure.” William walked in and asked what was going on. When Heather explained, Spencer was attempting to go through the door but William stopped him, “I think this is a bad idea, Spenc.”

“Really, then tell me this if I told you that you could never see Heather again, what would you do?” William stepped aside because he knew the answer, losing Heather once was heart wrenching for him, the sleepless nights, longing for her and aching for her was the worst time of William’s life. 

In that moment he knew what Spencer had to do. “I hope you find the answers you need.” William gave back the details that Heather had given him.

“Thanks, I don’t know how long I’ll be but I will let you know.”

“What about Paris?” Heather asked.

“I’ll tell her Mathew needs me. I want to be sure before I break her heart.” He called Mathew, “I’m coming down, is it ok to crash with you?”

“Dad this isn’t the best time…” Spencer interrupted him, “Well you can tell me all about it when I get there.”

Spencer had put his bag in the car when he saw Paris, “Where are you going?”

“Mathew is in trouble and needs me. A woman is claiming he is the father of her baby.”

“Hazel must be devastated.”

“She is a mess and so is Mathew so I shouldn’t be more than a week.” 

Paris gave him a kiss and said, “I hope he can sort this out. Let me know what happens.” Spencer smiled and got into the car to start the long drive to Lucky Palms. He started to day dream about his life with Tracy. 

He could remember her smell, how soft her skin was and how when she was 16 having Mathew was the most natural thing for her. Tracy dotted on him and Mathew loved his Mum. Spencer remembered when he was out of prison how much he enjoyed spending time with Tracy and Mathew. Now after ten years he was going to come face to face with his childhood sweet heart, question playing on his mind now was he ready?