Tuesday, 14 May 2013

4.32 Spencer's heartbreak

Heather turned around to see Spencer with a look of horror written across his face, “You knew for the past ten bloody years and you never said a damn thing.”

Heather hated when Spencer was angry at her and she started to back away, “You have to understand…” Spencer cut her off, “The love of my life, the mother of my son and you never said.”
“I’m sorry but you wouldn’t tell me anything and when I tried talking to you about Tracy you kept saying you hated her.”

“The moment I saw her I fell for her but I didn’t realise what an idiot I was until she left me. If I stopped my criminal activity and got a job like she begged me too, we would properly be married with more kids. Did you know I tried to locate her for about three years after she left? If I’d known you had her address I’d have come to you.” 

He collapsed in the chair and Heather said, “You are with Paris and you are getting married.”
Spencer looked at his sister and said, “How can I marry her now. I need to see Tracy and figure out if I still have feeling for her. Does Mathew know any of this?”
“Not yet?”

“Heather, why were you speaking to Tracy?”
“Matt got drunk and slept with woman who now claims she is expecting his baby. Hazel is on the verge of leaving him. Apparently this all happened before he got with Hazel. I asked Tracy to help find the truth.”
“I want her address, Heather.” She looked at the sadness on his face and replied, “I don’t think it’s a good idea.”
“Give me that damn address now,” raising his voice.
Reluctantly Heather agreed, “All I have is her work address and telephone number.”

Spencer started to tremble and Heather got down beside him, “Spenc, what really went on?” 

He didn’t look at her and now with a shaky voice started to tell his side, “I walked out the prison gates and the moment Tracy wrapped her arms around me planting kisses on me I knew my criminal activity had to stop. I managed to get a job and we started to talk about getting married and having another baby and for a month I stuck to my promise then an offer came that I should have passed up but didn’t. Anyway I got sent down for ten months, I kept myself to myself and was out in five months but at the prison gates there were no hugs and kisses. Tracy was hurt and upset at always being left to look after Mathew while I was inside. She told me that she needed time away and I was to grow up as Mathew needed a father. She said Mathew was staying with me. A few days later she phoned asking how Mathew was but I was angry she left me and refused to let Tracy see him unless she came home. She put money in our joint bank account for him but I never heard from her again. If I’d said sorry and not used Mathew as a bargaining chip, she would have come back.”

Heather was in shock, “Did you ever bad mouth Tracy to Matt?”
“Never. He loves his Mum. I came to you for help because I couldn’t cope on my own. I realised how Tracy must have felt and that is why I want to find her and apologise.”
“Do you still love Tracy?”

“Yes but I need to see her to be 110% sure.” William walked in and asked what was going on. When Heather explained, Spencer was attempting to go through the door but William stopped him, “I think this is a bad idea, Spenc.”

“Really, then tell me this if I told you that you could never see Heather again, what would you do?” William stepped aside because he knew the answer, losing Heather once was heart wrenching for him, the sleepless nights, longing for her and aching for her was the worst time of William’s life. 

In that moment he knew what Spencer had to do. “I hope you find the answers you need.” William gave back the details that Heather had given him.
“Thanks, I don’t know how long I’ll be but I will let you know.”
“What about Paris?” Heather asked.
“I’ll tell her Mathew needs me. I want to be sure before I break her heart.” He called Mathew, “I’m coming down, is it ok to crash with you?”
“Dad this isn’t the best time…” Spencer interrupted him, “Well you can tell me all about it when I get there.”

Spencer had put his bag in the car when he saw Paris, “Where are you going?”
“Mathew is in trouble and needs me. A woman is claiming he is the father of her baby.”
“Hazel must be devastated.”

“She is a mess and so is Mathew so I shouldn’t be more than a week.” 

Paris gave him a kiss and said, “I hope he can sort this out. Let me know what happens.” Spencer smiled and got into the car to start the long drive to Lucky Palms. He started to day dream about his life with Tracy. 

He could remember her smell, how soft her skin was and how when she was 16 having Mathew was the most natural thing for her. Tracy dotted on him and Mathew loved his Mum. Spencer remembered when he was out of prison how much he enjoyed spending time with Tracy and Mathew. Now after ten years he was going to come face to face with his childhood sweet heart, question playing on his mind now was he ready?


  1. Oh boy. This is going to be a bumpy road for all involved. The real one I worry about here is Paris. Spencer Knows he'll break her heart if he leaves her and goes back to Tracy. Ugh! I'm so conflicted right now.

    Poor Matt. He has no idea what's coming. Yeah, his dad, but he doesn't know or even fathom his dad's other reason for visiting.

    1. Mypal,

      I hate saying this but I agree with you this is going to be a very bumpy road and Paris is the one who is going to be hurt.

      Matt is going to be in shock. All I can say is watch this space lol

      Thanks for reading :)

  2. Oh noes, this doesn't bode well. On the one hand, I can understand Spencer's need to know for sure if he still loves her before he marries Paris, but on the other hand, he's already committed himself to Paris. Poor Paris. I think she's going to be heartbroken either way this shakes out.

    1. Misty,

      Spencer I believe already knows the truth deep down. He can't marry Paris if he feels differently. He is only engaged and better now than after marriage.

      I think she will be heartbroken :(

      Thanks for reading :)

  3. ~ Maybe there is something wrong with my head,(other than a head-ache!)as the above comments do not make much sense to me!
    ~ Spencer has loved Tracy since they were childhood sweethearts,he has to confront his past to see if his heart,is still committed to that love,so that he can go on with his future,the out come of that will determined where his heart lies,with Tracy,the mother of their child,or with Paris!
    ~ I do agree,no matter what, someone will be hurt,but better now than after the wedding!
    ~ I have a feeling that he is settling for a companion,now that Matt has left home to live his own life,but if he could have the love off his life back,what would you settle for?
    ~ Loved it! I can not wait for more!(",)

    1. Karima,

      He has loved Tracy since they were very young. He would rather know his true feelings thatn marry Paris and then divorce her. Someone will get hurt but I have a feeling it will be Paris mostly. Spencer settle, ummm maybe he was but only way he will find out is see his sweetheart face to face.

      Thanks for reading :)

  4. Poor Paris, she may have just lost Spencer and she doesn't know it yet!

    I don't think going to Tracy is a good idea, sure he still loves her and she loves him too, but there are tons of reasons why they broke up, and too much has happened since then, they are both different people now, and they would probably be better off without each other.

    Whatever Spencer decides one woman's heart will get broken, he can't have them both.

    1. Val,

      Spencer can't have them both, you are right there. The reasons for them splitting up will become clear. However would they be better off apart, I don't know.

      Thanks for reading :)

  5. Such complications! I feel so sorry for Paris! Even if he does decide still to marry her, just the thought that he'd considered going back to his ex-wife will hurt.

    All these years and Heather knew where Tracy was. I understand that he thinks that he needs to see if he still loves her, but I also wonder if maybe he should just let the past stay in the past. He has Paris now and he does love her. Tracy has her own life too!

    Such a bad situation!

    A good update, Lucky!

    1. Daisies,

      Heather did know all along where she was and Spencer was furious with his sister. He does need to see her but did he really ever love Paris in the way he should? Sometime the past will collide with the future and here I think that this is happening.

      I hope Spencer knows what he is doing.

      Thanks for reading :)

  6. Just when I thought things were calming down. Wham! sheesh.
    I thought Matthew's first was Hazel? hmmm,,, I can see that there is a lot of angst ahead.

    1. Zhippidy,

      Trouble is ahead :(

      Thanks for reading :)

  7. Hmm I wonder what Tracy and Spencer's reunion will be like. Matthew's past is catching up with him, I see. I had no idea he had slept with anyone else besides Hazel.