4.13 Hurting

Please be aware this is a long chapter as a lot needed to be covered but I still hope you enjoy

Teddy felt a touch wake her from her sleep but then she remembered what happened the day before.

"How could you?" Teddy yelled at Blair as she looked upset.

"I thought if I crawled into bed while you were sleeping by the morning we would be making love."

"What did I say last night? Talk to your brother."

"Don't call him that, I'm an only child."

"Grow up Blair and face the truth Estevan is your brother. At least you get a chance to know you brother, remember my brothers died before I was born so I never had the chance to know them."

Estevan was on the phone trying to talk to William, "Please listen to me."

"Why the hell should I?" Will shouted down the phone.

"The secret is out and I can tell you and Blake but face to face."

"I can't bear to look at you, Dad. I mean my wife never keeps things from me, never."

"Oh really. Then why is it you want more kids but she is exhausted and doesn't want any yet but you ignore it and keep pushing for another baby."

"I get your point. Anyway what is the secret? Just tell me over the phone."

"Is Blake there with you?"

"He is I'll put you on speaker phone."

"Hay Dad, are you having a good time?"

"Not really but I need to tell you both something. The secret is...Blake this may be hard on you but my father name was David Merrick..." he paused for a moment then he heard Blake's reaction. "Please tell me this is a bad joke."

"What..." Blake glared at William and said, "Seriously Will. Merrick is Blair's surname. Dad don't expect us to get on because nothing has changed for me. I still can't stand Blair."

Will now said his piece, "You knew all this time and you never said anything. Heather and my unc..." He couldn't finish that sentence. "Blair never knew about it until now?"

Estevan finally got to speak, "Will I'm sorry Heather kept it from you but I never asked her too. They never did anything but Blair is taking the news badly and is refusing to talk about it.

Blake had to ask one more question, "Dad who is the eldest out of the two of you?"

"Blair is my older brother. The house I'm staying in belonged to our father."

"Dad one more thing. Did you ask Dawn yet?" Blake asked.

"Ask what...?"

Blake spoke before Estevan had chance to answer, "He bought a ring and is planning to ask Dawn to marry him."

"Dad are you really serious?" Will demanded.

"I am, William. We were supposed to go out last night but Blair and I got into a fight so I haven't asked her yet but I will."

"Dad for what its worth and I think I speak for both Blake and myself when I say we like her and when the day arrives we will be there."

Estevan had a lump in his throat but stayed calm long enough to say, "Thanks boys and William, I'm glad we are friends again."

"See you when you get home." When he finished on the phone he went to search for Dawn.

Dawn was relaxing by the pool with Teddy when Estevan appeared asking to speak to Dawn in private. They went to the bedroom and Estevan closed the door. He sat on the bed pulling Dawn close and asked softly, “I’m sorry about yesterday and the fighting but as you can see its how Blair and I communicate.”

“I think you need to stop fighting and talk it through.”

“We will sort it out don’t worry. I asked to have a word because before all this happened you wanted to talk to me.”

Dawn frozen and with panic in her voice said, “I can’t remember what it was now.” 

Estevan looked at her loving as he pulled her on to the bed and said, “That is a lie. I know what you wanted to say was important by the way you looked at me. I trust you to tell me but I can read your mind but I would rather you tell me.”

“I’m not sure how I feel.”

“Feel about what?”

Dawn tried to look away but Estevan pulled her face back towards him so their eyes were fixed on each other. “Come on Hun, whatever it is can’t be as bad as you think.” She touched his hand and started to talk, “I...I think you may be upset with me.”

“Dawn don’t be silly.” Almost laughing as he continued, “So tell me.”

“I missed my period, I could be pregnant.”

Estevan shot up and Dawn sat beside him, “I’ve ruined things between us haven’t I?” Estevan turned to her and questioned her, “Ruined things? Why would you think that?”

“I know the boys are grown up and you don’t want to start again. I am so careful. I really can’t see how it happened as I just said I am so careful.”

“You think because I have two adult sons that is why I wouldn’t want any more kids...Dawn you are wrong. I would love more kids. If you are pregnant I would be over the moon.”

Dawn looked relieved but then upset again, “I can’t have a baby. I’m going to grow old then die and you will be alone again. Always reminded of me through a child, if we had any.”

Estevan pulled her close to him, stroking her face then he kissed her and replied, “If you want to be a vampire, ask me then I will start the changing process. You love me that much that the thought of me being alone without you upsets you. Dawn that is so wonderful you have even thought that but to deny being a mother because of this is wrong.”

“Would you change me?”

“I would plus I would be with you the whole time you were going through the process but if you are pregnant I can’t do it until baby is born. Have you done a test or been to the doctor?” Estevan couldn’t hide the smile as the thought of being a dad again thrilled him.

“I wanted to talk to you first about this. Will the boys be ok about this?”

“They will be fine. However Blake will be pleased he will finally get to be big brother.”

“I said I was late and that I might be pregnant. It could be nothing.”

“I know but would it be so bad?”

“I’d be a terrible Mum and babies hate me.” Estevan raised an eye brow to Dawn and answered, “Art loves you and he’s a baby.”

“Estevan, you’re not seeing the bad side here.” As she got up from the bed.
“There is no bad side but we will have to get married.”

“No I’m not getting married besides this is the way you ask me by standing there with no ring.” Estevan was angry and pointed his finger while he said, “I love you but I give up everything for you and yes I want you to marry me. I believe you date a woman, marry then have a child."

Dawn yelled, "What about me and what I want? I mean if you felt like this then why sleep with me before we married?"

"Why do you have to make everything an argument? If you are expecting, stressing out like this won't do you or the baby any good. As for the ring I have it already, I bought while in lucky palms." Dawn sat there in shock and replied, "Oh wow you were planning to ask me anyway?"

Estevan held her and said, "I just kept putting it off because I thought you would say no when I really do want you to marry me."

"I'm not sure what to say right now."

"Let's see if there is a baby on the way because I think that is now our priority."

When they arrived at the island's doctors they were stunned to see the office was outside. "Morning and what can I do for you?"

"I'm Dawn Star and...Is there an office we can go in?"

"Do you see it raining?"

Dawn looked puzzled and answered, "No."

"Glad we have that cleared up. What is the matter Dawn?"

"I think I maybe pregnant as I've missed a period."

"Ok we will do a test and find out." He gave Dawn a specimen bottle and asked for a sample. He pointed to the bathroom just inside. When she came out the doctor had just entered the building and told Dawn to take a seat outside while he did the test.

Estevan and Dawn didn't speak while they waited and it felt like an eternity waiting for an answer that could change their lives. Dawn's stomach was in knots as she saw the doctor approach them. "I have the results of the test Dawn." Suddenly she was glued to her seat waiting for the answer.

"Dawn the test was negative. You are not expecting a baby."

Showing no emotion because of her shocked state, "What other reason would there be to having no period?"

"Many things can cause this but the main one is stress." After more questions they left and headed back towards the house. Estevan held her close but said nothing. When they got back Dawn made an excuse to go upstairs, Estevan wanted to follow but Teddy said, "I'll go." Teddy entered the room and found Dawn crying on the bed.

"What did the doctor say?" Dawn tried to tell her but at first she couldn't then she took a deep breath and cried, "I'm not pregnant, and apparently I'm stressed instead."

"I thought you didn't want kids?" asking carefully.

"I never wanted kids and even when I thought I was pregnant, I was angry that I could let this happen but now the doctors says I'm not expecting...why is it I'm upset. I know because I want a baby so much. Estevan was so happy when he thought he was going to be a Dad again and it's my fault." While Dawn continued crying Teddy said, "It's not your fault and Estevan will be fine. I bet he is more concerned about you."

Dawn sat up but still her head was buried and then she blurted out, "He was going to ask me to marry him this weekend and it's all ruined. How can I say yes now? He might only ask because he feels he has too."

Teddy looked at her with concern and replied, "That's so romantic and on this island too. If he does ask it will be because he loves you not because he has too. There will be other chances to have a baby."

Estevan walked in and saw by Teddy's face it wasn't good. Teddy left them to it and Estevan lay on the bed holding Dawn while she cried. "Hun it will be ok I promise you. Maybe it is good thing you weren't expecting because now you know that it's what you want too."

Suddenly Dawn stopped crying and asked, "Estevan turn me?"

"No I won't. You are in a fragile state."

"Then make love to me." Estevan could have thought of nothing better but he hated pity sex and hated saying, "I love you but you need to let this out." Then he kissed her while she fell asleep in his arms.

Teddy was relaxing in the pool when Blair spoke, "How long are you going to keep this up?"

She didn't even look up and replied, "I could ask you the same thing."

"I'm on about us. I want us being us again. I hate the sofa."

After Teddy saw Dawn fall apart, she had to admit she needed Blair. Teddy didn't want to go home again without having any passion and sex. Their wedding night may have been a disaster but Teddy was determined this trip was not going to end in the same way.

"You could join me in the pool." Blair swam up to Teddy pulling her off the Lillo and kissed her while holding on tight. Blair then pull her under while removing her bikini and when Teddy resurfaced asked, "What are you doing? They could come out here at any moment." Blair kissed her again and answered, "I don't care if they are watching but I want my wife back."